Tuesday, November 09, 2010
I'm cranky and crazy
my headache is making my day worse
2 shoes spoil in a week, countless falling, headache, mega headache, extreme headache, the bad flu, the bad cough, the don't know how many times I vomited, scald myself, the door slam on my finger, and lots more actually.
all this happened in less then 10 days.
wonderful or what.
I'm just unlucky
im like moody
emo
cranky
sadist
I don't know
im not thinking properly
i get pissed off easily
i get sad easily
but I did learn how to stop my tears from flowing too quickly, all I have now is just teary eyes
and soon I will learn the art of not crying, and stay empty
i mean stone or calm? not calm but i will just eat all up
see what I type don't make sense at all
it's like how long since I blog
and then the stuffs I am blogging is so emo
maybe I'm scaring my friends away
maybe that's why I'm scared
cause I'm always scaring my friends away
and then I got scared about it
wth am I doing
I am a freaking sadist emotional cranky attention seeking freak
I am afraid
of being alone, left out, outcast
I don't want to go through all this again
please let me change
please change for the better sake
I don't know what I am doing now
typing this out really makes me feel better though I know no one will actually read this abandon blog
but its better then keeping inside of me and think of it negatively
and I will start going crazy
no I'm already crazy
@ 11:09 PM